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2007-09-06T12:02:00.000-07:00

i was staring at your photo today.
Brings back memories.

2007-09-01T10:04:00.000-07:00

Now whats the point?
It was 3 years ago.
Why do i still think of you like when we were going out?
Everything i do these days seems to remind me of you.
I thought the feeling was gone a long time ago.
But somehow it came back.
You're not even in the country anymore.

dammit.

o,odd upi. uiwo.

2007-07-17T10:52:00.000-07:00

Dad is going for an operation next tuesday.
Please god, make sure he will be alright.

I have been walking home from school lately.
I have not even been sitting cab lately.

What the hell is happening to me?

2007-07-12T09:19:00.000-07:00

i think i blew it with her.

We keep waiting.
Waiting for the world to change.

and NO. i am not ok.

2007-06-21T13:49:00.001-07:00

My girl's in the next room
But sometimes i wish it were you.

2007-06-02T14:27:00.001-07:00

I have a crush on a senior. Is that a bad thing?

2007-06-01T07:39:00.000-07:00

Don't judge.

"Its gonna be a life changing experience"
I guess it has been.
I haven't stepped into that room in ages.

2007-04-20T07:40:00.000-07:00

Has it really been 2 years?
2 years of fun, the same 2 years of pain and the very same 2 years of tears?

My heart's been more or less been stoned cold for the past 2 years.
Try as hard to melt it as you may. It shall stay solid.

I know sq and fish reads this. So i might as well speak my mind now.

I have always enjoyed everything other than studying.
Chairman for the Photography club.
Committee for Band.
Committee for Robotics.
Committee for Editorial.
Committee for Prefectorial.
A1 for CCA, duh. but at what price?
I stay in school from 6.30am to 5pm everyday.
My Mum complains that I spend more time in school then my father at work.
I hardly even study.
Sometimes i will be seen planning assembly events during lessons.

Then came the final blow;
I failed my maths and science. I had to retake it as a private candidate.

After i passed and got into the poly. I promised myself not to join any cca.
Somehow i was tricked by hongyun to join mit club. He tricked the entire class in.
One of the reasons huat boss had been the target of pranks and insults by my group.
Yes, i didn't volunteer for it. Forgive me if I wasn't compelled to be the slave of another interest group.

Then came talentime; initially i was not exactly enthusiastic about the whole planning event thing. And then i got sabo-ed into taking minutes for the meetings. And so this was the beginning.

And i guess the rest is more or less history.

I never said i was leaving club.
I only said i was not interested in being in the main comm.
I never said i was never going to go back to the clubroom.
All i need is a good reason to go back.

2007-04-16T06:45:00.000-07:00

wee and bast don't want to go for the mc too.
Too much politics for them.
I guess thats true too.
All other minorities get discriminated there.
So whats the point?

ahh. fck it.
I need a good GPA.

This wed going with class to eat sakae.
So sorry to my friends. Must fly your kite le.
Its literally almost the entire class le.

2007-04-12T12:31:00.000-07:00

I am still waiting.
Waiting to get stoned.

2007-04-12T12:24:00.000-07:00

Spam Spam Spam.

2007-04-09T11:42:00.001-07:00

I am numbing myself now.
Let me be.

2007-03-17T12:35:00.000-07:00

Life is just a dream that we chase after, its not exactly what it seems.

I am trying. Trying to be a better person.
I make mistakes. But i try my best.
Sometimes i seriously consider just abandoning it and just see it take form from afar.

I trust vin can do a good job. Although i feel that, sometimes he doesn't have a mind of his own. He sways to other's suggestions too easily.

Today was an example. He met up with lin to negotiate about using FOS day3, which we wanted to leave free in order to be more welfare to our gps. But he came back with the same story. I wanted more welfare because the gls want a campsong practical on thursday too. My gps have been coming back almost everday the pass week to do nightwalk recee, making of nightwalk prop, etc. The usual saikang. I don't want to overwork them. gls on the other hand has nth for the past weeks, and i am sure have nth on for the coming weeks to come anyways. Quek has been saying to me that he has nothing to do and wants to help out. I haven seen the gl ic in days anyways. I wonder what she/he has been doing lately. And my gps like sheryl and cb have ADD to set up on friday. And what is the plans for their day3? Go to Sentosa. OTOT. And want us to bond. Anyways, me and cb managed to convince barnet that its a bad idea to have a day3. And it was scrapped.

sigh. and i was fcking kicking up a fuss over it the entire day.

Whatever happens, i have to keep strong.
Why do people like to publicize my bad press?

The question is why matters blow so big even b4 i know about the matter.

Pui. Let them say all they want.

Think happy thoughts.

I have a good boss.
Thank god bnet got the job and not hui.
I swear.. i dun mind working under bnet anytime. realli.

I got good pals like Cb and Darren.

"A team is more than a collection of people. It is a process of Give and Take."

2007-03-03T08:54:00.000-08:00

I am NOT going to apologise in the gm.
I dun see the point.
Neither does the entire OC.

2007-01-20T11:04:00.000-08:00

How long has it been since i last saw u?
Its been far too long.
Yet not long enough for me to forget the times we had.

i missed u. i really did.
Too bad you weren't be able to see this.
At least i don't think you will.

2007-01-15T09:55:00.001-08:00

You seem to find the dark, when everything is bright
You look for all that's wrong, instead of all that right
Does it feel good to you? To reign on my parade
You never say a word, unless it's to complain...
It's driving me insane

If I Were You, holding the world right in my hands.
The first thing I'd do, is thank the stars for all that I am...
If I Were You

Look what's around you now, more than you ever dreamed
Have you forgotten just, how hard it use to be?
So what's it going to take? For you to realise
That all could go away, in one blink of an eye...
It happens all the time

If I Were You, holding the world right in my hands.
The first thing I'd do, is thank the stars above, tell the words I love...
That I do

Yea If I Were You,
Whoa, yea If I Were You
If I Were You, whoaaaa
Yea If I Were You

So what's it going to take? For you to realise
It all could go away, in one blink of an eye... it happens all the time!

If I Were You, holding the world right in my hands.
The first thing I'd do, is thank the stars above, tell the words I love...
Take a breath and enjoy the view
Live the life that I wanted to
If I Were You... If I Were You... If I Were You!

2007-01-02T11:23:00.000-08:00

Shaded by the trees, calling out to the wind, I'm lying face-down crying
I saw a version of myself I didn't even recognize
On this guitar I'm playing the melody of someone who's passed on
A star falls in the grief of someone who'll never be seen again

Please don't go, no matter how much you scream,
all it will do is quietly stir these orange petals
Saved on my soft brow,
I send the memories in my palm far away
An eternal farewell as I keep strumming

The heart of a child clinging to a gentle hand
The blazing wheels cast it off and continue on
On this guitar I'm playing the grief of someone who's passed on
The strings in my heart being plucked at violently

In the pure white unstained by sorrow,
the orange petals stirred in a summer shadow
Even if my soft brow is lost,
I'll cross over the far off, red-stained sand
The rhythm of farewell

Branded into my memories, on the ever-turning earth,
there is something sprouting in remembrance

Sending off the dawn's carriage
Those orange petals are stirring somewhere even now
The peaceful daybreak I once saw
Until it is placed in my hands once more,
please don't let the light go out
The wheels are turning

2006-12-31T12:14:00.000-08:00

This is a place for me to rant.

I work best in my comfort zone.
When working i prefer to think of people as faceless beings.
I don't really like to be prejudice against others. At least no when work has to be done.
Frankly speaking i prefer to settle all my stuff in one roll.
I don't really like having other stuff cut in halfway thru what i am doing.
Not even to eat.
Especially when i am in the zone.

2006-12-16T04:36:00.000-08:00

i really need a proper blog.